Well done Elvelyn Low!

Before talking about what happened today, I should mention what happened before sleeping last night. Went online and saw Simin; she told me about her seeing my mum on Saturday... After telling me about the contents of the conversation with my mum, she said,"Your mum misses you a lot..." Like reflex, tears came to my eyes.

As much as my mum has been asking me not to go back during December, and there's no big deal about me going to US alone and stuffs, I know it's her way of loving me. She understands very well that "if you don't push the bird out of the nest, it will never learn how to fly". Being in a conservative family, we never talk about emotions and preferably try not to show too much feelings. Simin's statement didn't bring realisation into picture, it's more of triggering emotions that have hidden beneath pride for a long time. Ahh..... Hee hee... Gan3 xie4 tian1 ci4 gei2 wo3 yi1 ge4 hao3 ma1 ma1!

Went for cafe breakfast this morning, GOSH! Had 1 iced donut, 1 piece of french toast, scrambled egg and 1 hash brown; downed with a glass of milk. Realised that the americans around me eat similar amount of portions; I'm getting really worried, because honestly, I still felt hungry after finishing breakfast. Quote from Yee Lin: 1 of him went to the US, 3 of him came back. I think I'm going to suffer from that predicament soon if I'm still at this appetite...

Luckily I went to the gym at FAR; but it was nothing like Jurong East gym, nor the one in Warwick. FAR gym doesn't even have a treadmill! The weights 'creak' when used, and I thought I saw spider webs there... Oh well, at least I worked out (a bit).

Having gastrics now, apparently my stomach doesn't identify cookies as dinner. Think partly also 'cos of what happened at Kinley Hall (one of the business buildings) today. Earlier in the day, I wrote emails to 4 of the lecturers whose lectures I had interest in, one of the lectures being a compulsory one in the UK. After getting positive clearance from 3 lecturers, I went to the business school and talked to Jennifer Frank, my coordinator.

Seriously, I think I've really improved a lot over the year. Jennifer wasn't exactly the most friendly person around, and she told me despite my core module being shown as available, there are 15 UIUC students waiting to get into the class, and she told me straight that priority is given to the UIUC students; chances of me getting the course this term is very slim. On top of it, she said there is no guarantee that I'll get it for spring semester as well. In the fit of anger (i.e. I regret it now) I wrote an email to Warwick, telling them the situation, complaining a bit about Jennifer and asked what am I supposed to do now, given that I can't get the core module. I thought I sounded pretty harsh in the email, but it was really irritating. Looking at Jennifer's face, I had to muster every drop of strength I have to smile at her even though bombs had been dropped on me. Actually asked her to empathise, but all she said was,"There's nothing I can do!" and shirk all responsibility. I'm really glad I controlled myself. Wouldn't want to lose my pride in front of a woman like her

Ok, I beginning not to know what I'm typing anymore. Better get some sleep. Good nite...!