Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Demoralized...

Just completed my first mid-term exam for the semester - quite demoralized about the whole thing. If this was the UK, I'd be happy, seriously, because I'd definitely get a first class for the paper (or so I feel), which is a 70%. But in the US, to get an A, you need 90% and above. And personally, I don't feel there's a distinct difference in standard of papers that leads to a shift of the bell curve. *sigh* Moreover, they asked details that I didn't notice, like what's the symbol of Coca-Cola in the stock market? - details that would be chicken feet to people who have been paying attention to the real-life market.

On top of it, I got back a short essay-based assignment yesterday, got 4.5 out of 5 and the comment was 'Good work'. So happily thought to myself, hey not bad, especially when I was given 2 weeks to complete and I only spent 2 hours on the day itself to complete. Later, I realised similarly, this course requires a 90% to get an A, and a 95% to get an A+.

The thing about this system is that, it really doesn't allow any slips at all; you've got to be on your toes all the time. For instance, if you get 80 for an exam, you'll need to get 100 in another to pull you back up to an A. And I wonder why's it everyone telling me that studying overseas (UK's an exception lah =P) is much easier than in US. Think I've really got some hidden stupidity somewhere =(

Shouldn't be trying to find an excuse for myself, but I'm actually studying the same level modules as the 3rd year Singaporeans here, whereas the 2nd year Singaporeans are doing a level lower than me. Or probably I haven't really adapted to the US system yet?

Guess I can't smoke through the way I did the past one year in UK, which is, of course a good thing in the long run. But I'm so going to be miserable =S K k, I know my friends in Singapore have been having a hard time all along, I shouldn't be complaining, but... *sob* *sob*

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