Going in Circles...

Shall try to write an entry (for the third time) that will strike a resonance in my heart...

"How have you been recently?"
"Like that lor..."

How can I tell you that I've been on the verge on crying time and time again?
How can I tell you that I've been unhappy with you?
You: For giving up on me (us) and making me go through all these alone.
You: For telling me I should be how I used to be when you have changed.
You: For asking me how I am, when you don't even listen.
You: For putting me down whenever I try to tell you how I feel.
You: For slapping my hand away when I reach out for you.

Would you have listened if I tried to tell you how I feel?
Would you even try to understand what I want to say?
Can you stop saying "So?" with every sentence I make?
Can you even try to share in my happiness?
(I'm not even asking you to share my pain)

Stop undermining my sadness;
Let me feel like the saddest person in the world,
And that you wish you could do something to take away all the pain.

I don't want to suppress the anger in me anymore;
Neither do I want to release it.
I don't want to be an angry person - help me take away the anger.
Don't you know? Anything you say makes me happy.

I wish you're here again, to be there for me whenever I need you...