“我很怕寂寞，却很珍惜一个人的时候。
我认为交际是种负担，但却从那里得到满足感。”
Do you have a part in you that you've never shown to anyone?
Because you are afraid that others will not be willing to accept that side of you.
Probably you have allowed some in your life to catch glimpses of it.
But was met by their rejection.
I did, I actually revealed so much. Too much.
Which was why I was so badly hurt by his nonchalance.
Which is why I refuse to allow myself into that vulnerability anymore.
You can't get hurt if someone rejects you for what you are not, right?
Would there ever be that one to share?
The fear of losing everything.
The fear of not being able to wake up the next morning.
The bottled emotions.
To see me for who I am,
What I've been through
And what I'm still trying to reconcile.
To tell me,"No matter how you will be, I will always be there for you."
Who is strong enough to hold on.
"If You plan for me to walk alone, at least give me strength to do so and not look back."
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