Break free

I can't believe my trip to Pune and Delhi had left me reeling with so much emotions and thoughts within. These feelings were especially stark when I went back for my course today.

Suddenly it hit me,"I've really been trying so hard to get used to being in Singapore for the past 2 years, but just that several days and I'm back to ground zero."

So hard I'm trying, to belong but the more it shows that it's different - not the same anymore.

I thought I've gotten used to the lack of private space, call me a spoilt brat if you want to, but I can't help it anymore.

Sick and tired of being pretentious, of trying to show the sides people want to see, hiding away the sides that people may not understand or accept. Why should I be trying to fit into others' myopia?

Cheesy it sounds, but wish I can break free. Wish I can find a place in this world where I can feel I belong. Wish I can do that with the blessing of loved ones.