Last week was horrible - I thought I had never met such a vicious person in my life, to demean every single person that came along the way, using everyone else as a stepping stone for her ego. But later, things got so ugly, I figured some things are better left uncovered, and we should always give people the benefit of doubt. Furthermore, she hasn't really done anything to me as a personal attack. So why should I react so vehementedly?
Most importantly, I've learnt from last week, that don't ever believe what you ask people to keep as a secret will not be spreaded. Even if u really trust that person, if it really gets spreaded around, u've only got yourself to blame. Since you yourself find it a secret that you really don't want people to know and yet you tell others, who are you to expect the same from others? That would be double standards.
Yeah... And I thought the worst is over. Until now. How do you feel, if one day, u find out the only one pillar of support left in ur life, the one that u have so much faith in, is crumbling within ? The only place where u can seek solace in, the only place where u genuinely look forward to going back to, is no longer what u envision it to be?
No, u don't want to die, there's no reason to anyway. Life's not that fufilling yet; I haven't met the special one, though I've got a feeling he's not going to appear after all. But all these make u wonder, will life ever be fufilling? To remain hopeful - is it pure stupidity?
Most importantly, I've learnt from last week, that don't ever believe what you ask people to keep as a secret will not be spreaded. Even if u really trust that person, if it really gets spreaded around, u've only got yourself to blame. Since you yourself find it a secret that you really don't want people to know and yet you tell others, who are you to expect the same from others? That would be double standards.
Yeah... And I thought the worst is over. Until now. How do you feel, if one day, u find out the only one pillar of support left in ur life, the one that u have so much faith in, is crumbling within ? The only place where u can seek solace in, the only place where u genuinely look forward to going back to, is no longer what u envision it to be?
No, u don't want to die, there's no reason to anyway. Life's not that fufilling yet; I haven't met the special one, though I've got a feeling he's not going to appear after all. But all these make u wonder, will life ever be fufilling? To remain hopeful - is it pure stupidity?
2 comments:
Haha Seems like u always meeting ppl who are being vicious, nasty or bad whatever stuff u name them.
Recently i am reading a book named The Present and i find it meaningful. After all, only u can determine if ur life is fufilling and always look at the present not the past or the future. The past is done so as the damamge no pt grieving over it, the future is yet to arrive so as The One no pt thinking about it. The Present is now which u can control.
Having a Headache means i'm unable to tink much... feel that i am posting rubbish again Hope u Dun Mind :P
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Hey, its been ages since I saw you online, and I have been most eager to know what happened. But never mind, till then.
I guess hope can be a harbinger of strength , but it can bring you lots of despair too, and I guess somehow fundamentally it must be the loneliness that prompts us to keep in hope of meeting the right one. I guess it might be simpler to just lie back on the river and see where life take you, and enjoy the pleasantly surprising results :)
Smile girl, will be behind you always :)
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